Energetic Awareness

I was reminded the other day that there is an energetic awareness I need to heed. I was holding my husband accountable for not setting up a side-trip he’d wanted to tack onto an already planned vacation. We’d had most of a year to extend our itinerary, but never got around to it. Once or twice, I suggested he go ahead and investigate, with no results. What I failed to recognize, was that energetically he needed me to be invested in helping him. Big decisions need support.

Physical Awareness

As the decades fall behind me, and the results of my practice accumulate, I have become more aware of the world energetically. How my energy interacts in the world. For instance, when I am out of balance, I begin to see that my movements are frenetic. I might be reaching for a wooden spoon in the kitchen but will notice crumbs on the counter and suddenly turn to grab the dishcloth. I’ve literally wrenched my knee doing this.

Emotional Awareness

The sound of my voice can also clue me into how I’m interacting with someone else. Sometimes I can feel or hear where my voice is resonating from. When I’m identified and lost in what I am trying to say, it sounds sharp, and the register is higher. When I’m centered in myself, I can hear my voice coming from a deeper, softer place.

If I pay attention to the world energetically, it reciprocates. Some days have a certain flow to them, when it feels like I’m riding a current. Obstacles either don’t hang me up or seem to dissipate.

Mental Awareness

Currently I am catching up at home from having been away and yet I was presented an unexpected opportunity. Friends had taken on a large project without asking for help. Yet they were sacrificing time and money to volunteer their work on something beneficial for others. Energetically, this was a “happening” project, although at a distance it looked impractical. On two occasions, and with many personal chores to attend to, I chose to help my friends. Somehow, my own tasks got accomplished too.

Energetic Awareness

By paying attention to and working on my own bodily, emotional, and mental energies, I find myself more aware of energetic currents that support me. Gurdjieff talks about two streams. One carries you, drifting along in life, to the netherworld but the other flows to the sea. When I’m working and aware, I am much more likely to be flowing towards the “sea.”