What is my relationship with Real I? Yes, it is “my” relationship with what, in the Gurdjieff work, we call real I. “My” in the sense that there’s this me part of myself and then there’s this other thing. Having Real I For years, having a real I seemed like a pipe dream. Surely it … Read more
Good things can be found with the space jet lag leaves you in after a trip to France. With sharing impressions, wine and cheese with your grown granddaughter and husband on a hotel balcony.
Juggling energies is what has popped up for me. I have been doing a lot of long-distance traveling and local running this summer laced with good times as well as stress. From a family lake house in New Hampshire to Asheville supporting a family-member’s surgery, to West Virginia preparing for a trip abroad. Just the … Read more
“May the flow of my pen speak the Truth of my life.” This is part of the prayer I say before sitting down to write these blog pieces. But what is “the Truth of my life”? It changes from day to day. But the crux of it revolves around Jack and the Work. What is … Read more
Looking at ways to bridge the interval in an upcoming seminar, I decided to make an enneagram. A fundraiser for Emberlight (9) was worthy, the presenters came together (1), and the planning was productive (2). But registration (4) doesn’t seem to be happening in the slam-dunk way I thought it would be. At first, everything … Read more
I’m working with an exercise that’s new for me, so I thought I’d review how that has evolved. Until a few years ago, all the inner exercises I knew had been ones Mr. Bennett showed at Sherborne. For years I worked from the notes I took during the course. Later, I was privileged to be … Read more
Everything in me felt like not doing movements as we drove home from Asheville June 14th. I had intended to arrive the previous Tuesday, in time to be rested and ready for the International Movements Retreat. But we decided to stay in North Carolina an extra few days, which seemed the right thing to do … Read more
Transformation—what does that mean? This is my budding enquiry. Like so many words belonging to the Gurdjieff vocabulary, the word is very familiar. Bennett used it to describe the nut of what he was after. We, in this Work, are constantly referencing it. But what do I know about it? Here I am, fifty plus … Read more
Convergence is in my life this month with many threads interweaving, touching and informing me. I’m studying and training at Emberlight Center for Conscious Living and Dying as a Direct Care giver. I’m dealing with an in-law’s newly diagnosed illness. My grandson is transitioning from high school to college. All these strands are providing opportunities … Read more
I’ve been here before. At least I recognized a place I’d tasted in a previous meditation retreat when Jack had cancer. I had gone looking for solace from a tree, finding one I could climb up into and lie along a broad branch to hug. But the tree was dead. There was no life force … Read more