Heanen and Air

Are heaven and air connected? Where does our spiritual body go upon death? I’m beginning to wonder.

This enquiry is stemming, once again, from my Lenten practice of doing the rosary.

Years ago, I found myself gazing up into the sky while contemplating “longing desire for heaven.” This was my inner meditation while thinking about Christ’s ascent into heaven. Holding the notion of longing desire for heaven, I intoned the Hail Mary prayer for each of ten beads, and I wondered:

Why was I looking up at the sky? Did I think heaven was sandwiched beyond the blue and before the black of outer space? What the heck was I thinking??? Then I wondered, why is heaven and air (sky) connected? Is it just because this is how heaven is always depicted, as being “up there”? We see so many images of Christ floating up into a vibrant blue sky, filled with golden edged clouds and hovering angels. Is it all about imagery, or is there something connecting the notion of heaven with air and death that I’ve been missing?

This year, catching myself gazing upwards and wondering why, something new occurred to me about heaven and air. It came as a coalescence of several things.

For one, I’ve been practicing contacting the life forces of the food I am about to eat, reminding myself before my first bite, that “I, too, am food.” Secondly, I have been working more consistently with incorporating the finer elements of the air into my inner exercises and work. Thirdly, I am aware of being in the phase of life where death comes increasingly close to home.

The Connection Between Heaven and Air

The other morning while doing my rosary practice it all came together. The notion that heaven and air are connected. Not in a far away, up in the clouds sense, but right here, all around me.

What happens to my spirit when I die, where is it that I’m longing to go? In my work to form a Kesdjan body, I have fed it consciously with the finer elements of the air. The very same air that we breathe every day.

When I die, my body at the very least becomes compost to feed the soil. My wish, my longing, is that I will have nourished a spiritual body which then becomes an energetic, “finer” food. The notion that that energetic food resides in the air makes sense. It also enhances Bennett’s talks about air being “more conscious” than we are. That air is an entity.

If what I long for—a spiritual body—relates to air, and if air is connected to reciprocal feeding of that body, then my becoming part of the finer elements of the air is where my heaven resides. This is a heaven I can long for. A heaven that is all around me. That I can be a part of rather than go to. That contains us all.